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| Atlas is my favorite :) |
I know that I am meant to be a chiropractor, and I know that
through chiropractic I will serve humanity.
It sounds so lofty, righteous even, that sometimes I laugh
over it. But it’s a fact. I own that truth deep in my heart, in my bones,
in each cell, in each molecule, in each atom. And in the stuff that those atoms
are made of. And the stuff that stuff is made of. See? I’m a little
melodramatic about it all.
But the more I learn, the more I realize how powerful
chiropractic is. It’s as simple as getting someone out of pain. That’s
powerful. It’s as huge as a person’s vibrational tone within the universe. That’s
powerful.
And the more I learn, the more I realize how powerful I am.
But I doubt so much.
Sometimes, I listen to outside voices. I should do a high
volume practice. I should be doing screenings. This technique is better. Philosophy
is the most important, no wait!, evidence is the most important! Do anything
that helps your patient. Don’t mix. A kind heart will get taken advantage of.
Sometimes, I listen to inside voices. I’m not smart enough.
I don’t read enough. I don’t know my anatomy well enough. I’m fat. I'm ugly. I’m not intuitive enough. Why can’t I feel
that? I'm wrong. I’ll never get this! I should
relax. Don't ever let up.
Sometimes, I listen to the universe. That’s when I hear the
truth. The truth is, it’s okay to be quiet about my philosophy. It’s there and
it’s strong. It’s okay to not know just how I will do a not-for-profit practice. It
will happen. It’s okay to feel alone and
doubtful. My heart and my determination are right where they need to
be- the details will fall into place.
So many things in life I roll my eyes at, shrug my
shoulders to, or laugh off. But I take this journey so seriously. I keep walls up and people
out for fear that I’ll get off track. Then I’m upset because I feel alone. I
don’t tell the whole truth for fear that I’ll get talked out of my dreams. Then
I’m upset because I’m misunderstood. And
I wonder why I struggle and fight to be big when others seem to be so content
in mediocrity.
(It’s scary and it’s lonely and it’s hard.)
But, even in the mist of my doubts, I trust my place
within the universe. This is what I am meant to do and to be. I am certain in
my calling and in my aspiration.
I’m really lucky that way.
